yesterday my dad and mom were having a discussion... they've been married for 36 years i guess. that made me think: what does make so different people like them decide to get together forever? Someday they must have fell in love with each other then they went somewhere to sign a paper that would become them husband and wife. that time they must have dreamt a lot about their future, the kids that would come, the family they would get... but nowadays, after 36 years, is their life like they planned it to be? are they happy with it? did they make the best choice? Love makes us to take important decisions that can change our lives forever.
im 25 and i got married already... it was not like i expected then i left the boat. i guess i dont want to think if i did the right decision after 36 years. Im sure my parents are not in love anymore. they just need each other's company, I even dont think they have had sex the last ten years lol
i just wonder if there's someone in the world who's willing to be with me for 36 years and dont regret. Someone who will wake up someday and see me with no teeth and the universal gravitation acting on my breasts and still think... it worth it.

virtual world...

nowadays the virtual relationships have increased. i can really say that... i know some people in the internet and some of them have talked to me for almost 3 years. It's an easy way for shy people like me to get the first move into a relatioship like to meet a new friend or who knows a bf or gf... some people use this way cause they dont have time to socialize in a "normal" way, some find it easier cause they dont want to get commited, some just want to have fun... and guess what? its a safe place to have fun heh... no risks of diseases, pregnancy lol
In this virtual world people can be what they want... or u can imagine the person you r talking with as u want... thats where the problem lies... you might be talking to a serial killer who pretends to be the nice guy who lost his family as a kid... poor guy lol here is my advice: dont drink and drive. this has nothing to do with the virtual thing, but, well, i didnt say it would be about it =P

There i go... A new attempt to create a blog. i hope it works this time. First of all english is not my native language, then, english speakers, id apreciate if you forgave my mistakes... =P

For few days i've thought about who i am. it seems like an easy question... im Gleisiane, a 25 years old brazilian girl... simple like that. but im more than that. I have a history, i have people who had influence in my life, good or bad, but still. By the way, this should make me feel guilty free for anything considering im the result of what i've learnt from other people...

What I know about me... I know i'm a dreamer who wants to clear the world. i feel like i belong to the world and i wish i could know every little piece of it, i wanna know the particularity of every place. It fascinates me the meaning of life from different points of view. By the way, when i die, please, someone cremate my body and spread my ashtrey all over the world :> i'm passionate! although passion gets me down sometimes, i allways love to feel it. I need to feel in love to feel alive, I need a reason to have a smiley on, to wear that new jewelry or that nice dress, to write... I'm shy and not as confident as i wish. We are used to blame someone or something for our problems... blame to Freud. who or what i should blame?? im not sure. maybe my friend Freud would know better. Maybe that's it... i need a therapist, a second opinion for me to get to know who i am =P