Fireproof...

nice movie...
About a guy who finds out the real meaning of love! loving without expecting anything back...
do I have a spirit lifted enough to love somebody like that?

thoughts of saturday night

Sometimes when I feel lonely or upset for some other reason, the worst thing I can hear is: "Come on! your so beautiful, smart..." and some other adjectives. this only proof how incompetent I am to get over my own problems.
Im the youngest in my house, so I had much attention from everyone. Im the spoiled girl who cant get home after midnight without calling every 30 min even after going throw a divorce.
Im no longer a kid. Can someone tell this to everyone around me? but please, explain this to me too! its maybe a matter of atitude of myself...
I own a free spirit which is stuck inside my fears.

thats all
whatever I have said...

my cam couldnt handle so many pics... its broken :(

Morro Branco

Wednesday

Dear diary lol

It´s Wednesday and I had a fun day with kids around. 2 nephews, a niece and a cousin. All under 12 yrs old. Exercizing my maternal side hehehe

I thought I´d be a liberal mom who would let the kids to be free but I cant leave my nephew to go around by bike without cheking every 2 minutes lol well, he looks so undefended =P

* my reflexion of the day:

When Michael Jackson was alive people used to call him a pedophile, wierd, antisocial... now that he is gone they put him on an unreachable pedestal and justify his unusual behavior saying that he was just trying to take backhis robbed childhood... Well... I dont want to be one more hypocrit saying that I never had bad ideas about him. But........ I hope I dont need to die to have my mistakes accepted by those who are supposed to love me!

My advise: "Love while your love is worth"

Thats it

o desgaste das paixões

La fora ta chovendo... aqui dentro sao as lagrimas que molham o meu rosto.
Choro por labios que os meus nunca beijaram, maos que as minhas nunca tocaram, e um amor vivido apenas em devaneios de um eterno coraçao apaixonado que se encantou por um olhar meigo que carrega em si a profundeza dos oceanos...

Um sorriso carregado de leveza me desarmou a alma me fazendo sucumbir aos teus encantos. Fiquei vulneravel, entregue a fraqueza de uma paixao nutrida por promessas fúteis proferidas por labios impiedosos que desconhecem o sentido de amar.

Quisera eu ter o poder de resistir aos desejos do meu coraçao

Real life...

Today I watched a movie called "Becoming Austen." A contempory movie where a girl from the country side falls in love with a guy from the city, a typical film of romance... I just couldn´t wait to see her to fall in his arms and see their lips to meet for the first time instead of disguising their mutual desire with an exchange of insults. After two frustrated attempts to get together I realized that it was a true story based on the biography of Jane Austen, a great name in English literature.

Movies based on true stories prove what I´ve already found out... real life is shit! just watch Titanic, Into the Wild, David Gale, Olga, among others. Movies that portray a raw and naked reality, without the monotonous happy endings extracted from minds that ironically also live the drama of real life.

I cried seeing all that love slipping through their fingers, watching life taking away the flame of passion that once burned in their hearts ...

Part of me still believes that I can have a happy ending to the tune of Sinatra under the moonlight ... but the script of real life, of which we are protagonists, is not always written the way we want.

A Vida real é uma merda!

Hoje assisti um filme chamado "Amor e Inocência". Um filme de época onde uma mocinha do interior conhece um rapaz da cidade... uma história bem típica de filmes de romance. Eu nao via a hora de ela cair nos braços dele e deixar que seus labios se encontrassem pela primeira vez depois de tanto desejo camuflado por tras das trocas de insultos. Depois de duas tentativas frustradas de ficarem juntos me dei conta de que se tratava de uma história real baseada na biografia de Jane Austen, um grande nome da literatura inglesa.

Filmes baseados em histórias reais provam o que eu ja constatei faz tempo... a vida real é uma merda! basta assistir Titanic, Na natureza selvagem, A vida de David Gale, Olga, entre outros. Filmes que retratam uma realidade nua e crua sem os monótonos finais felizes extraídos de mentes que ironicamente também vivem o drama da vida real.

Eu chorei vendo todo aquele amor esvaindo-se por entre seus dedos, vendo a vida arrancar-lhes a chama da paixao que outrora inflamava em seus corações...

Parte de mim ainda acredita que eu posso ter um final feliz ao som de Sinatra sob a luz do luar... mas o roteiro da vida real, do qual somos protagonistas nem sempre é escrito da maneira que desejamos.

The sun here doesnt give us time to miss it...